Amidst the traffic & the frustration to get into the office on time, you called me.
It was an unexplainable feeling.
Seemed you are worried of me getting late. “hurry up; I saved you a seat next to me”.
It was Friday.
I should’ve ignored it but resistance is unavoidable.
I replied, “OK, I’m almost there”.
I felt a bit of excitement. the idea of sitting beside you is just exhilarating.
Being tired & pressured of finding a job, it was somewhat fortunate to land in ‘here’.
It was just what I wanted & expected. It was a laid back milieu.
Previous day was full of fun & excitement. Maybe because trainers were warm enough to make us ease.
Maybe because it was easy, or maybe.. You were there.
It’s too early to imagine how will it be having you near.
But it never hit me.. that it would be a turning point of my life.
Fresh from the break up, I reproved myself of relating again too soon. It was sweet, bitter past.
I promised myself not to get involved that way to anyone again.
It was so painful.
Nevertheless, life really is full of surprises.
thought of you brought me into a new dimension as if pain is no longer there.
I roused into reality & excitedly that I’ll be seeing you today.
It was a tough ride, traffic. I was exhausted & felt filthy.
Then I saw you. You were there smiling. All my exhaustion faded.
It started there. We became friends, so close without looking right through what’s behind us.
I was careless & vulnerable.
We became closer as we went on. It was frightening and overpowering.
Time passed by swiftly & suddenly, each of my morning longs for you.
I enjoyed much of you than anyone else. I have forgotten even myself.
Notwithstanding the pain, I smile & live again.
I can’t afford to loose you now.
Not now, not ever.
